Hello, I am sorry to hear this. I am here for you if you want to talk. My husband also has arthritis which can be very painful. He has gout. I am trying cinimon and honey with a glass of warm water. It is helping him. I have struggled my life as well. I know how difficult it can be. One thing which I have learned is not to tell myself that I am lacking for the more I do that it does become worse and those things will be drawn to me even more. I am always telling myself I have more than enough. You came to the right place for here on aidpage there are many who have good useful information. I am in the same boat with the low paying jobs. Currently I have been laid off and job hunting. I will take a low paying job if I feel passionate about that job. Please I know this is hard but don't allow yourself to worry. When we become worried stress becomes too much and it will clutter our minds then we would not be able to think clearly to finding a solution. I know I have been there. Be happy joyful the lights are not turned off yet. Something will come along. You are in my prayers and your family. I have been helped here on aidpage and am very grateful to be here. Please keep in touch.